Am I a failure?!
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I am totally bumbed right now. Yesterday I started to come to the realization that unless some miracle happens or I meet someone that wants to donate a lot of money, I will not be able to ride for Act 6. Fortunately because I am on the steering committee I can move over into the crew side, but I really want to ride. It's just not the same thing for me. Granted I have not trained like I should, again, but riding is what it is all about for me! In fact, I don't know if I can be a part of the ride when I can't be a rider. It is so depressing to me.
Basically I am about $800 short of the minimum amount needed for a rider. No small peanuts I know! This year is just really tough for donations with the way the economy is, and unlike some people, I don't have a business supporting me with a few thousand dollars. In face, I can't even get people at work to doneat!! How stingy is that?! Everything I have tried for fundraising this year has fallen flat. ugh! Even as I sit here in the dark since it's O'Dark thirty...I feel the tears running down my cheeks. I need to just accept that I have failed at my fundraising, and move to crew. I want to be a part of the ride, the cause, the reason we ride. But if I cannot ride, I can crew. I will just have to accept it while hoping that somehow in the next week something comes my way.