Showing posts from May, 2012

What DO I want to do?

As children we are asked early what do you want to be when you grow up? It starts innocently with princess, president, astronaut, police office. But at some point they actually expect that you just know what you want to do, then ship you off to school for a few years and viola- there you are! But what if your dream and your ability to do this occupation do not mesh, and then you are faced with - nothing? A series of mindless, lackluster occupations that will bring home money for your family but leave you unfulfilled and wishing for more.

So what does someone do when they are 35 and realize that they just don't know what they want to do with their life. Faced with working on a masters in something that is not bringing them joy or doing the scary thing and starting over. But how do you know what your passion is, or what you are supposed to do with your life. If you have many things that interest you and sound good but just doesn't strike a cord.

So where do you go? What do you d…

So little time

I think that time has run away from me these days. I look around and it's days later and I just don't have enough time anymore. Story of life I know...but it's unnerving.
School is a struggle. I found my ultimate roadblock in accounting and actually had to attempt this class twice. Sadly, I did not win this battle and then it became a question of changing majors or dropping my attempt at masters all together. Well not being one to just give up I switched to an MPA which is public administration. Not my ideal and actually I am not as excited about the classes. I am really struggling now where the classes for my MBA just came easily to me. Makes me wonder if this is not a poor choice. I hate that I just cannot understand something like accounting no matter what I have tried and it is very demoralizing.
Currently I have two classes which are a mixture of accounting and statistics which is like my nightmare. I have a feeling that I am not going to do well this term but we w…