Lonely

Ever have one of those days that you are surrounded by people yet feel completely alone, like you are observing life instead of living?!

The house is full of people, yet nobody's home. everybody's here and I'm all alone calling out your name, but there's no answer.

Perhaps it's the weather, kind of gray and rainy, a stay in bed kind of day. It is actually put me in a mood to write again. There have been bits-n-pieces of my poems swirling around my brain lately.

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