Where has the time gone?!

That just made me feel like Jack Sparrow from Pirates of the Caribbean "why is the rum always gone?!" Seriously I don't know where the time went, moving has completely consumed my everyday life for about the last 3 weeks, however, it's all over now. Sometime this week I will head over to the apt to turn in the keys and kiss it goodbye, Friday we have to be gone. The cool thing is that on Sunday we cleaned the whole place so it's all done really..just have a TV to take to the house, but we didn't have a spot big enough at the moment so we figured that would give us a day or two. With that being said, the last week has been one of the most stressful I have had in a long time. I am disappointed in the vast amount of poor customer service individuals representing such major companies.

Thanksgiving found us sitting in the living room of the new house, gathered around the TV for the football game. We were all sitting in any folding chair we could find. 1 plate short, lots of food, and great company. It actually was very touching to look around and see these people, all new friends for me, in my new house, on Thanksgiving day. It might sound cheesy, but I felt special that other people choose to help us that day. I totally blame that on the adoption issues. It's like sometimes I don't feel worthy or something..silly I know!

So there it is. All my stress and childish insecurities..

oh, as a side note. I will be shooting engagement photos for the couple that I will be doing the wedding for this weekend. This will be the first true test, then on the 8th is the Eyeball in which yours truly is the official photographer, and some holiday photos for a friend. So, business is picking up..how fun. If only I knew how to work the Photoshop I just bought...one step at a time.

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Kimberly said…
I missed you on Thanksgiving - it's just not the same without the VK family and the Roller Rink. It left a void in my day and now I'll have to come up with a new tradition. :( I'm glad to hear that you had such great friends that were willing to help you move on Thanksgiving Day and that you were able to relax and enjoy your company for a while. I love how you were able to find joy and gratefulness in such "limited" circumstances. Can't wait to see pics of the new place - how exciting!
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