Big week this week

Well it is the day before the AIDS Ride, I must admit I am getting nervous. I had today off of work to run last min. errands, pack my cycling gear and mentaly prepare for what lays ahead of me. I am creating a few playlists for the ride on my ipod, not sure if I will use them during the ride or just after we get into camp at night, who knows. I have about 4 hours until I have to do the pre-ride stuff, register, get my number, and then watch the saftey video. I will also turn in a few last min, pledges that came in about 8pm last night. I must say as I look back on this year of talking about it, thinking about it and then doing the training and fundraising it has been quite a process. I am utterly amazed at some people's generosity, just when you think someone will not do something a check is in the mail, or an email of encouragement, just when you need it the most. I had almost resigned myself to the fact that I was not going to meet the goal of raising $1,100 but I have done it!
Again, I cannot thank everyone enough. I have heard that this ride will change your life, perhaps they are correct. I hope to be able to bring awarness to communities and help those with HIV/AIDS. I am proud to be a part of this wonderful event.
You can email me while I am gone, just visit www.actride.org and look for the link to email riders. We will get them each night at camp.
Well lots to do...

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