Is this a sign?

So I started a process in another law enforcement job and failed yet again…is this a sign? 

Do I finally hang up that hat once and for all? 

Seems like I have been fighting that for quite a few years now. Getting so close but then I end up failing …am I trying to push for something that was not supposed to be for me?

Do I just accept that sometimes you cannot fight what is supposed to be and trust that my path will show itself to me?

Is this my sign?

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