Half-Pint

Let's see how long I can use song titles for my blog post titles?? Well the true irony is about my last post "I'm not dead" because only a couple of hours after I wrote that I nearly was. Monday night I was on call, per my usual call night at the eye bank. Just after crawling into bed, closing the eyes and preparing for dreamland, my pager goes off. I was being sent to Viroqua (for those of you unfamiliar with Wisconsin geography, that would be 128 miles away from my house... 1 way) So, I walk in to tell Loni I had to leave and I that I would not be home until 230pm Tuesday since it would take that long to drive up and back and do the recovery. The drive up there I am sure was beautiful, wouldn't really know since I took some back road that was pitch black out and felt like I was driving through mountains with cliffs looming off to the side of my car. Anyway, the case was all wrong...everything went bad but I finished up around 3am and began the trek back to Madis...

I often wondered if I could use a Pink song as the title for my blog. Well I am still alive, I have been down since last week Sunday with Influenza A & B..lucky me. I was able to burn through all of my remaining benefit time for the year so now I have nothing until July. Again lucky me! Seriously I was the sickest I have been in a really long time. Moving from the couch to the kitchen was my marathon. So, updates... I am as we speak finishing up my Madison Police Department application. It has been quite a work of passion, thought, slight procrastination and of course doubt. I have been wondering lately if being a cop is just what I am destined to do. It seems that I am either not qualified or just not a fit for everything else that I have tried...yet for law enforcement, I have my degree, experience and the Military experience. So who's bone brained idea was it to wait an additional 8 years to come full circle back to where I was. But anyway, I am hoping to turn in my app in ...

So tonight I sit..watching a deep and serious movie about love, the choices we make, and what happens after those choices have been made. Anyway, it's called Love & Suicide. Okay yeah I admit the act is slightly off, but it is an independent film so cut them a little slack. It reminds me of the teenage angst I suffered from once upon a time. Remember those first romances?   Anyway, my new "darkened" perspective on life lately has me back into a writing and more "artistic" mood. I have been doing some writing again which has been nice.

Okay enough!! I am seriously at the end of my rope, and I cannot take much more. Just a few updates: Loni's niece Cheyenne : she is doing well and is home now. All tests came back negative which is a great sign and she seems to be doing great! Kids are so strong in their own way. Hockey: overall great season, I am sad to see it all end. It was hard not to win for the essay but on the other hand, you can't get anything in life if you don't try. My team took 3rd overall, not too bad for a group that never seemed to have more than 9 players (which is only 2 lines = very tired hockey players!!). Job: okay to be honest, this is where all of my stress and frustrations come from. I am completely overworked, (I won't mention underpaid since I think we all feel that!) Everything at work seems to be internal combustion, I can't really explain it all. I don't know what is happening really, a lot of closed door meetings, hushed talking, upset managers. It has really not ...

Hockey is done, over... and it was a blast! Last night was the championship games and people came to support, to cheer, to have a wonderful time. My team took 3rd overall playing a super fun and exciting game. We announced winners of the essay contest (not me) and spirit award. Overall super night..although I am slightly tired this morning. So, I think the words of Carole King say it better than me: Now and Forever You were a part of me And the memory cuts like a knife Didn't we find the ecstasy Didn't we share the daylight When you walked into my life Now and forever I will remember All the promises still unbroken And think about all the words between us The never needed to be spoken We had a moment Just one moment That will last beyong a dream, beyond a lifetime We are the lucky ones Some people never get to do All we got to do Now and forever I will always think of you Didn't we come together Didn't we live together Didn't we cry together Didn't we play toget...